Dear 28 year old me,
So you’ve finally turned into a woman ( well, as much as I like to see myself as a woman even now, I do still think of myself as a girl) and hopefully can also proudly call yourself a lady with class while being a girl at heart at the same time.
Hope you’ve worked on yourself and somewhat inculcated few of those traits and virtues that have always mesmerized you and those that you idolize most people for.
Hope you’ve solved your life’s puzzle at least now and have it sorted and don’t end up messing up stuff in the last moment like me.
Hope you’re still as adamant and stubborn about your beliefs on what is right and what is not and don’t just get influenced by the society or even the people in your life for that fact. Regarding this point, you’ve always been this way and trust me, don’t ever change this about yourself.
Hopefully, you still don’t let social media affect you. Always remember that it’s you who has a control over it and not the other way round.
Hopefully you had loads of fun through your college life, met few amazing souls and have had the craziest experiences that make you roll over laughing when you get reminded of them.
Hope you were successful at following your heart and trying out few things that you were really passionate about and achieved something in them and made yourself proud.
Hope you’ve travelled to a lot of places like you always planned to and still have a long way to go and a long list for a lot more places that you wish to visit. Never give up on this dream of yours ( haha, whom am I kidding, I know you won’t) .
Hope you’ve at least done few of those adventurous things that have been on your list for quite a while now, be it free fall or scuba diving or any other such thing and gone on few of the most incredible and bizarre amusement rides and have a plan ready for the rest.
Hopefully you’re still writing these blogs and have mastered writing them, using fancy words and creative themes unlike this plain boring me.
Dear 28 year old me, there’s a lot of stuff that you’ve faced and have been criticised for when there was no personal fault of yours and merely because of the practice in our society of tagging any person who is known in and around their area, mainly by the people you didn’t know existed, let alone ever talking to them ( but like always, just remember, if they have a mouth, they are going to have an opinion and they are going to talk but you don’t need to let that affect yourself) . There are a lot of hurdles you’ve passed and are yet to pass. There are many people whom you came across in this journey called life, few left you broken-hearted, few you let go for the sake of your own sanity, but hopefully you still have few people from now left.
I hope you know and remember that you’ve not always had a life filled with rainbows and unicorns. You’ve had your own shares of ups and downs. You’ve incurred loads of scars in the process, but you know what’s better? You succeeded at healing them and those are what make you beautiful and strong and more importantly, YOU.
Well, I do know that you’ve been way too strong for way too long and sometimes all you really want to do is give up and just let it all be but right at that moment you need to remind yourself that you’re a fighter, always have been, so don’t you dare give up, no matter how tough life gets. At that moment, I want you to know that I fought and it’s because of that fight that you made it till today, so just go ahead and battle all those vicious demons and make it all worth it.
And last but not the least, I want you to promise me that you’ll never change for anyone or anything, regardless of the circumstances and situations you come across in your life and always stay THIS ME. The ME who doesn’t need anything or anybody to validate her, who’s comfortable in her own skin and finds solace and happiness in her own company. Who’s her own happy little pill. Who doesn’t judge anyone no matter what the scenario is or how they treat her, because she knows that everyone has a back story that makes them who they are and the person that they are is unique because of it. Who goes out of her way to help someone and never for once thinks about getting anything in return. Who’s more busy exploring her own complicated self rather than paying attention to others flaws, let alone bitching or gossiping about them. To always be this optimistic person, regardless of the unforeseen thunderstorms you face at any moment, like always.
I want you to promise me to never give up, because I never did. I want you to pass this on and write such a letter to your future self reminding her of your sometimes unrealistic goals ( but the ones you’ll still succeed in anyway, as you would know by now), because of how passionate you’re about achieving them and help her stay strong through it all and to never let the thought of giving up creep in, regardless of the hurdles. If not anything, let yourself grow through the shit you go through.
I hope you have turned into the kind of woman that your younger self (yeah, me) would idolize. And in the end I hope you achieve everything that I am planning and live a life worth living.
Dear 28 year old me, I hope you read this and remember today, the day I wrote it and smile to yourself thinking about how you were such an idiot and whisper ‘ I LOVE YOU ‘ to the 17 year old you.